A world that could be mine...
All things aren't really perfect. Each person doesn't have everything, blend and work it up before you would gain it. Confidence is what I actually miss even before. I couldn't achieve or make it still how much I tried to. I took the responsibility I thought was very fine, never thinking that I entered a task that would just turn and made me push with the weakness I have.
Few months ago, I've decided to run for the council with my friend for us to prove for this gal that we can make it. As we work it out, there's no such day that we didn't visited by conflicts. Everyone had doubts that we would win, but they are wrong. Unfortunately, they believed in me and I must response to the trust they've shown. At first, I was very excited and never had the feeling of nervous. Little by little, the pressure was going all over in me.
I cried when I heard that I would have to do such job. Being in front of the crowd indeed makes me crazy. They just don't know that I screamed the whole nightlong thinking of what would be the next wild thing they will ask me to do. I can't stop my heart for beating so fast when that moment comes and I usually end up with a lot of mistakes. The tense I felt would never replace a cool and confident as what I'm always wishing for. This is what I am who eternally bid for more writings rather than speaking promptly.
I only attain my strength through my very supportive chums and I'm really proud of them for being my crying edge whenever I needed them. And as time goes by, I'm learning to gain the confidence I really lack. Lately, I heard from my pals that I'm starting to transform and that they believe in my capacity, which inspires me a lot. I must not pity myself and the unlucky thought shall turn towards positive. I know and I assume that in the end, I just really need to defeat it all. And that’s what the greatest thing Mrs. Lanciola taught me…thank you, maam!=D
All things aren't really perfect. Each person doesn't have everything, blend and work it up before you would gain it. Confidence is what I actually miss even before. I couldn't achieve or make it still how much I tried to. I took the responsibility I thought was very fine, never thinking that I entered a task that would just turn and made me push with the weakness I have.
Few months ago, I've decided to run for the council with my friend for us to prove for this gal that we can make it. As we work it out, there's no such day that we didn't visited by conflicts. Everyone had doubts that we would win, but they are wrong. Unfortunately, they believed in me and I must response to the trust they've shown. At first, I was very excited and never had the feeling of nervous. Little by little, the pressure was going all over in me.
I cried when I heard that I would have to do such job. Being in front of the crowd indeed makes me crazy. They just don't know that I screamed the whole nightlong thinking of what would be the next wild thing they will ask me to do. I can't stop my heart for beating so fast when that moment comes and I usually end up with a lot of mistakes. The tense I felt would never replace a cool and confident as what I'm always wishing for. This is what I am who eternally bid for more writings rather than speaking promptly.
I only attain my strength through my very supportive chums and I'm really proud of them for being my crying edge whenever I needed them. And as time goes by, I'm learning to gain the confidence I really lack. Lately, I heard from my pals that I'm starting to transform and that they believe in my capacity, which inspires me a lot. I must not pity myself and the unlucky thought shall turn towards positive. I know and I assume that in the end, I just really need to defeat it all. And that’s what the greatest thing Mrs. Lanciola taught me…thank you, maam!=D
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